okay, after severel times we divorced, have fighting, I had made it up, and I will just wait, even it is hard for me to do so.. It he is meant for me, then I I am the most bahagia person in this world. But if he is not, kalo dia bukan milikku, aku bunh pompuan tu!!! , I just wish he will never existed in my life..
I am not the kind of person who like to talk about him to others. but maybe once I cannot keep it in myself, it will just go like that..
I had punished others sorry my friends for his mistake...
I had just punished myself besauce of him what a stupid action i had done!!!, and he was jus having his bestest time with that fucking girl.. what should i do?? I am not a robot..
I have the jelousy inside... I need his attention... He should be regrettng this if I am doing something that he dislike very much.. But he is aching me... Killing my heart was just the most cruel thing that he is doing..
So, I keep lying myself, that I am trying to change him into another person....
The person who can lead me to a more good person one day... But now, I just dont know, What am I to him??
He was just keeping his distance from me.. Maybe it is my fault to say that i understand him fo whatever he wanted to do.. But announcing that he is engage to that fucking girl make me crying, and I hate that very much taht I could do anything to just make him stop whatever he is doing right now...
I know that tonight, he must be with the girl... having fun.. wonder if he remember of me... because every minutes in my life, I keep thinking of him.. He is my prince, my hero, my everything...
I miss you...
I misss you very much..
I do really miss you very much, and I wonder if you know it..
You told me to do as there is nothing happened.
you said that you love me...
you said that you just wanna play with her heart, and now, you are playing with my heart also...
Maybe you will never feel this, because you always sell your love to everyone, even to the one whom you never sure who she is...
hey, I am the Qaseh Purnama... Sorry, but only by that I can be near to you, but, by doing that, I am destroying myself...
but, dont worry, because, even i can't live a life without you, I will never do the stupid things that you had done... I promise it..
