luahan..

dengarkan..

luahan si hina ini..

mengapa?

kala aku memerlukan bantuan,

tak ramai yang mengerti..

kla aku tersungkur ramai yang simpati

tatkala aku gembira, semua bahagia...

macam pentingkan diri sendiri kan?

jom tukar sikit..

mengapa?

tatkala mereka perlukan diriku,

aku tiada...

tatkala mereka mahukan sentuhanku,

aku biar mereka sengsara,

dikala mereka dalam kegelapan,

tiada tangan yang menghulur pelita,

tiada suara menunjuk jalan,

tiada petunjuk membawa arah.

semua ini khayalan semata-mata...

hakikatnya kita serupa..

kau dan aku bukan satu..

kita dalam dunia yang berbeza...

kau perlukan aku..

aku perluakan kamu..

sokonglah aku walau sebesar zarah seklaipon,

jagan dibiar diri ini terhilang arah, 

jauhkan diri ini dari amarah,

hargailah diri ini seadanya...

manusia tak pernah sempurna.

pada mata manusia tak pernah ada yang indah.

menilai tanpa sedar dinilai.

dinilai, tanpa sedar ada yang dicanai...

philosophy

from a friend: human being are so stupid!

from myself: live do always complicated

from a friend: if you're late, dont rush, just have a normal life.

from myself: better late than never.

my mother said: never love someone more than anything

friend said: let people love you more than you love them.

my saying: i dont care who you are, where you're from, what you did, as long as you love me....

kalau ada

kalau ada jarum yang patah,
 jangan disimpan di dalam peti,
kalau ada salah dan silah,
jangan disimpan di dalam hati...

kalau ada sumur di ladang,
boleh hamba menumpang mandi..
kalau ada umur yang panjang,
boleh kita berjumpa lagi.

kalau ada rumah yang besar,
dihias dengan taman nan indah,
kalau ada hati yang gusar,
bertemu teman, pengubat gundah..

gunung bercabang, si gunung daik,
dihuni haiwan bernama kingkong,
kalau ada sahabat yang baik,
buat apa pun pasti menyokong.

penari mayang langkahnya sumbang,
rambut disisir sambil berseloka.
nak bermadah kata pada si kumbang,
sekadar mengubat hati berduka.

kalau berkalau pemula kata,
salam diberi disahut lemah terasa,
rindu menggunung tak terkata,
mengenang pada ayah bonda berjasa.

he comes back!!

to be loved.. something that i waited for....

but... to be dunb again??? never want it anymore..

but he is here, what should i do..

deep in my heart i want to have it again.. but my rational mind said "no" to him.

let him go is a waste. let him stay is a poison.

my heart beats faster when i speak to him.
my tears always wasted because of him...
lucky now i can control myself from addictes in the false world created by him.

perhaps he is not the one for me...
perhaps he is for me..
perhaps we can be together..
perhaps we were never meet.
perhaps we just friends
perhaps we have never have this feelings.
perhaps i was just dreaming....in my own world of fantasy....

TINGGAL KENANGAN- CARAMEL....

JAUH KAU PERGI MENINGGALKAN DIRIKU
DISINI AKU MERINDUKAN DIRIMU
KINI KU CUBA MENCARI PENGGANTIMU
NAMUN X AGI SEPERTI DIRIMU OH KEKASIH....

PERNAH ADA RASA CINTA ANTARA KITA KINI TINGGAL KENANGAN
INGINKU LUPAKAN SEMUA TENTANG DIRIMU
NAMUN X LAGI KAN SEPERTI DIRIMU OH BINTANGKU....

seriously, i miss it much!!! but never let it control myself!! i must control myself and tel it NO!! I DO NOT!!!

GO AWAY FROM MY LIFE!! I DONT NEED YOU.

learning zone

being 'someone' is a learning process. doesn't matter who you are or where you are. the important thing is you must have strong mental and physical condition...
  fighting with each others to be the best is good, but sometimes we must face it hen we fail in achieving something that we want very much.

for those my friends whom have a stinky heart, doesn't care about others feelings, I hope all of you can change your behavior because the same thing will happen to you when you are out of here.

mix around with various people make me enjoy my time. but hard to do it always because i have imited time to socialize. i have new and old friends. they are all my friends. i have never forgotten them. hope they feel the same about e.

i am training myself to be someone whom independence.  i dont want to be someone who always ask for help from people, but i really want to be someone who can help people.

friends..... it is hard to describe them. sometimes we see them as enemy, but sometimes the real enemy is our friend, and  our friends might be our enemy..

who knows....