chill it out, but can't

     I want you right now!!!

    No matter what, I just want to be with you, but you are always with her...

   you will only look for me if you have a problem and for me, it is unfair. it is true that i said that i understand whatever you want to do. but for me, it is just too much. you make me feel like i am a fool, an idiot.

i know much things, but due to you egoistics, i pretend not to know anything.

   i know that our life is a journey. once you did this to me, i will remember it for the rest of my life.

  maybe sometimes i pretend to feel like there is nothing to be afraid of, but sometimes, I feel like wanna kill you and burn your decease. 

  I admit that I LOVE YOU. but for all of your doings had make me abonded and am nothing for you. I am waiting for your promises, I am just waiting to fulfill my promises towards you, but from the starts to this moment I am the only one do the most sacrificing. It is me. 

         

you're such a stupid man... I hate you!!!! hate you very much!! but the more i hate you, the more i love you.... the more i love you, it hurts me even much greater... why should i feel this feeling? please go, but i wont let ot go after everything we had done together.. i miss our moment. i miss you.. please come back to me.. please... coz i love you...
  But let us make it clear.. If you come back to me, you find me back, you look for me, i will always be here for you....
   But if you just letting me go, then, there is no doubt that we are not mean together...

  

make it up

okay, after severel times we divorced, have fighting, I had made it up, and I will just wait, even it is hard for me to do so.. It he is meant for me, then I I am the most bahagia person in this world. But if he is not, kalo dia bukan milikku, aku bunh pompuan tu!!! , I just wish he will never existed in my life..

I am not the kind of person who like to talk about him to others. but maybe once I cannot keep it in myself, it will just go like that..

I had punished others sorry my friends for his mistake...

I had just punished myself besauce of him what a stupid action i had done!!!, and he was jus having his bestest time with that fucking girl.. what should i do?? I am not a robot..

 I have the jelousy  inside... I need his attention... He should be regrettng this if I am doing something that he dislike very much.. But he is aching me... Killing my heart was just the most cruel thing that he is doing..

what a broken grammar!!!! sometimes, I am thinking of letting him go.. Go!!! Just like that....! But I keep thinking, can I do that?? If I am letting him go, then, he must be back to his original condition.

 So, I keep lying myself, that I am  trying to change him into another person....

The person who can lead me to a more good person one day... But now, I just dont know, What am I to him??

He was just keeping his distance from me.. Maybe it is my fault to say that i understand him fo whatever he wanted to do.. But announcing that he is engage to that fucking girl make me crying, and I hate that very much taht I could do anything to just make him stop whatever he is doing right now...

I know that tonight, he must be with the girl... having fun.. wonder if he remember of me... because every minutes in my life, I keep thinking of him.. He is my prince, my hero, my everything... 

I miss you...

I misss you very much..

I do really miss you very much, and I wonder if you know it..

You told me to do as there is nothing happened.

you said that you love me...

you said that you just wanna play with her heart, and now, you are playing with my heart also... 

Maybe you will never feel this, because you always sell your love to everyone, even to the one whom you never sure who she is...

hey, I am the Qaseh Purnama... Sorry, but only by that I can be near to you, but, by doing that, I am destroying myself...

but, dont worry, because, even i can't live a life without you, I will never do the stupid things that you had done... I promise it..

Sebook

awal sem nie, aku sebook melobi diri untuk menjoin banyak aktiviti... actually, it is not too much, but since i have to struggle and handle with some people's behaviour, so it seems ;like there are sooooooo many things that had to be settle. FUCK THAT IDIOT!!!
    It has been a very long time didn't merepek'ing in here...
    Well, as I know, I can't sign in inti this blog here, in Muamalat. But, once I saw a few person updating their blog, I tried to open my blog, and, it is a big success of being able to be in here again... Hahahaha..... BUAT GELAK JAHAT MACAM ABANG HANIF... NGEEEEE....
     Just now, i received a message asking me not to disturb him until this Sunday. but I had an experience, once he say something like that, don't call him, just wait for him to contact you... COZ HE WILL GET ANGRY IF HE IS IN MIDDLE OF SOMETHING IMPORTANT, THEN SOMETHING CALLED GANGGUAN TEKNOLOGI DISTURBING HIM... HE MIGHT BE KILLED...
    So, I was just be waiting, and waiting, and waiting like the bird si pungguk missing its moon rindukan bulan...

    

ha.. harinie, kita nak share sama anda satu lagu kegemaran kita...

eceh... poyo je ayat2 aku nie... heheehe...

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Cabaran Sem II 2011 di UUM

Cabaran Sem II di UUM, aku rasakan sem nie aku banayk main... *baru minggu kedua la che Fatin!!* Apa pon, aku tetap rasa aku banyak amin since aku banyak buang masa, and aku macam sedikit tidak bermotivasi. Mengapakah?? Kejutan budaya melandakah?? Ataupon ada punca yang lain yang aku tidak ketahui punca dan hujung pangkalnya.

     Sem nie jadi lebih mencabar bila laptop kesayangan aku LINGKOP.... Lingkop in meaning tak boleh digunapakai secara total dan Pendrive yang menjadi sambungan nyawa kepada Laptop tersebut tiada di tangan. aku terpaksa bergantung harap kepada sistem internet dan menyimpan semua kerja kursus dan segala jenis homework kat dalam draft e-mail aku. sangat sinple, but still sangat membebalkan bila aku terlupa nak save draft yang aku buat tu...
      Tahu la kalau masuk lab, sama je ngan CC, segala fail akan dipadam bila sistem direstartedkan. Maka, segala penat lelah dan idea tahap genius pon akan terlenyap dengan sekali klik... As simple as that..
      Azam aku, tak mau bagi orang pinjam duet, and akan menjadi sekedekut yang aku mampu, even dengan Pekndak Kafeteria tu. Kalau dapat tempat yang boleh bagi harga lagi murah, tempat tu la yang akan menjadi mangsa kunjngan terhormat aku.. *Kalah azam tahun baru dah nie...*
     Kepada sesiapa yang rasa dia ada hutang dengan aku tu, semoga Allah bukakan pintu hatinya untuk menjelsakan dengan kadar yag paling segera dan terdekat. 
      Blog merupakan salah satu punca pendapatan masa kini. Dengan kreativiti masing-masing, diharap agar ramai rakyat Malaysia akan mendapat faedah daripada kemajuan masa kini ini.Amin...
  P/s; banyak lagi cara sebenarnya, cuma malas @ tak pandai nak cari @ qosek...